Any staff is messy when you put up your mind wasted with other things like painting the town with many colors as you wish... If you paint the town white, you can see many happy faces and praise you and they will said that keep up the good work and blah blah..actually at first impression, that is a very heart warming event in your life but that the truth is they just want you to help them out into the many problems of their life.. life that is misserable and irepalceable with wealth and women or men.. they just want you to make favors for them. favors that is very important for them, with out knowing if how do you look? are you alright or how do you feel etc.. when you paint the town black or any dark paints, you are just a waste for them, that can be thrown any where they want. Even a dew will refuse you to drink them.. even the sun will refuse to heat you up in the cold nights..
                 But the bottom line is... be happy... defend you feelings to the critisms of the forbidden and maggots of this earth... they can't help you but to cheer you down. be strong and patient to what you will and you encountered..